Thoughts of the Human MInd

Am I holy enough?

2006-05-01T02:58:00.000-07:00

Most of us probably have seen Christians jump around, clap thier hands, shout, etc. during worhship services or maybe during a powerful preaching moment. Myself as a Christian, I observe these moments, I'll look around and objectively study each individual expierence relation to God. I dont know exactly what is going through that certian person mind, but to that individual its a special moment, but hopefuly it is because he feels like he's worshiping God in his own loving way and not standing out from the rest and looking hoiler than thou. I think its a dangerous practice to feel like you need to show off, I'm not saying every Christian is like this, but most like to assert thier own pride into that. I do not question someone's expierence with what they feel in relation to God. I only object the situation, to question what is the whole purpose of running from your seat just to jump in the middle of the stage like you won the lottery, to shout louder than the rest of the shouters, or to shake voliently during worship services like your having a convulsion. What is the purpose of all this nonsense, yes I get excited when someone says "Christ set us free" thats because I contain myself, I have self-controll in my excitment, I dont need to do a dance move for that, Christ will knows my heart, I dont need to express that to the whole congregation. But when the pastor says something powerful, you get a few people jump around like its a party, they'll wave thier hands into the air like thier trying to catch a bug, or like if the spurs won the chapionship game.

Maybe I'm just being too judgemental, but it still strikes my mind as odd, the need to exploit yourself as something uncommon can be a danerous practice because if the intentions for that specific motion comes from a pride intention, then what is it all worth. I believe the most beautiful worship services are taken place within the pravitcy of your own room. Why? well thats because it comes from a whole-heartly loving descision to worship God because you feel the need to do so. Being intimate one on one with God alone in a room is worth more then many things the world cannot give you.

Whats the gospel worth?

2006-04-28T00:21:00.000-07:00

I watched TBN yesterday and today, but to only be disgusted by what I see everytime I watch that blasphamy channel. I was overwhelemed by the amount of unsound preaching and heretical teachings, most of which I've never even heard of. Like for instance, the Law of 6, which is a sow and reap prosperity teaching. I dont think I have a good understanding what this teaching is about but its very vague at the moment when I think about it, but I think I can rephrased what was said. Basically if you pray to God to have the "Law of 6" in your life you will gain back what satan has taken away from your life, once this law comes into your life, you have the full authority to demand things from God and satan. Say for instance, satan has been stealing your blessing, and then you decide you want to sow faithly by giving TBN a certian amount of money which TBN insist that they are the true connection to God through electrical wires and God will heed your offering you will reap more than you sow. So if you do this faithfuly, everything Satan has stolen from your blessing he will have to give you back more than what he has stolen. Then at this point everyone in the service just shouts and yells. In scripture I have never heard of this Law of 6, sounds like a made up ploy to bring more money for these money hungry theifs.

This blasphamy channel is literaly filled with this junk that teaches no gospel at all, they demand and demand to the viewrs to pick up the phone because they are going to release a power in each individual's life's. I really wish most Cristians who are devoted to this station could question the validatity of the message that is being preached.

Thought I try this blogging thing again

2006-04-26T03:03:00.000-07:00

Today as I sit at my computer desk bored with no job, having nothing to do except trying to hear God's voice, create music, study, read my bible, practice my love with my family, and just think about where my life is headed. I sit here and thought to myself that I want to try this blogging thing once again. I think I need to interact more with people and build some social skills. But sometimes I think I'm not good enough, my thoughts, my words and advice is never appreaciated, or sometimes I would get a big "you think you know everything, do you Roy". I also think I'm not intellegent enough to attract anyone to my blogs where I come to express what is on my mind so I can interact with other minds, its for the growth of myself so I wont be settled in ignorance. I think thats what I really want, I want to grow into this complex human being that knows everything, to be smart, but I cant seem to be that complex person, the smart one, and I think I can never be one mainly because no one will ever be one, we all have ignorance to some extent. So I dont know if this blogging thing will really matter to anyone, just trying it again for the sake of interaction with my fellow neighbors and brothers. Maybe I'll have something worth while to say since I have evolved more in my behavior and thoughts.

Nazarene.